Alone with my thoughts

Song: Numb (Linkin Park)
Quote: "Darkness has no anwers!" (One Tree Hill)

Lately I know: It is really hard to be seperated from the people I know and love. In your everyday life you might not notice it, but you speak to them every day and laugh with them, tell them your problems and so on. I hadn't had internet and telefon (besides mobile phone which isn't that cheap) for 3 weeks and I felt disconnected to the word. Oh yes, I have to say: I am addicted to the media. Wow...well, I guessed it (in my englishtests in school, when we had to right essays about media), but that it would have this dimension I would have never guessed. I really felt relief about being able to login my accounts. I didn't feel, that I was up to the current news.
I know that I can call my parents whenever I feel like, but they have their own life and I feel like I disturb it (kind of), when I act like a little child that needs its parents. Even little pink elephants have to become adults ;) I know it's hard.
I can't believe that it is 3 weeks ago that I was home...I was never that long away from home...well...now it will be even more..but I am happy with it in a way. :)

A new beginning- Journey-point 2

Song: Post Blue - Placebo
Quote: I'm an idealist. I don't know where I'm going, but I'm on my way. (Carl Sandburg)

Well, well... now I have finally settled in my flat. Not yet in society in Berlin, College has't started yet officially, but that will be fine in a few weeks...at least I hope. I am not that sociable person, normally open to people I know well, but shy with strangers. I have an aim: starting all over at college. Don't do the same mistakes; don't seperate and do only your only thing.
I even went swimming, although I hate swimming, but I thought a new start has somewhere to begin. But a dream came true, I am here in Berlin, are able to study what I wanted since 8th grade (really...I stuck to it over all the time and although EVERYONE told me not to!!) and live on my own. Although this is rather dificult, when you had such a home I had. Welcoming and peaceful, full of love. This sounds like a clicheé, but I am very glad that I have them.
Thoughts cross my mind these days all the time, thoughts of this kind that can never been answered. Why? Why do I ask all this questions? I can't say. But such is life.